As may is mental health month I thought it fitting to discuss my personal mental health.
A lot of you have shared that you look to me for inspiration or motivation when you're feeling down which is very sweet to hear as my goal in life is to make others smile and feel good. Well I have to admit I've been feeling pretty blue of late which is why you haven't seen much from me on social media.
As much as I'd like to say I'm happy all the time, the fact is, I feel some pretty amazing lows, this month has been particularity bad for me. I do everything I can to get myself out of the lows, but sometime's they just sink me down. It's as though nothing in the world can cheer me up. I was speaking with a couple friends at the shop the other day and one of them called those "cold days" which I thought was a very good description. When I'm feeling "cold" I try to remind myself that I have nothing to be sad about, I have a beautiful wife, lovely home, a store to create in, a great team around me and most importantly you lovelies surrounding me and making me feel good. I want to say that I really appreciate all of you reaching out and getting in touch with warm wishes and messages of love. They definitely bring me up when I'm feeling down so thank you for that.
The other thing I do when feeling "cold" is to go for a run, sit in the sun or paint. Generally these three activities bring me up from the fog but sometimes they can't help. Its as though the cold is deep within and nothing I do or say can surpass the darkness clouding my being. I chalk it up that everything has balance and I am lucky enough to feel the extreme highs of life, which means I also have to suffer through the extreme lows. There are times when I feel that nothing can knock me down, as though I can achieve and accomplish anything, I LOVE THOSE DAYS. On the other side of that I feel the ultimate lows that life can bring. The extreme emptiness of society and our world, the dragging realities of day to day. The lack of common empathy and love shown by huge corporations or governments. I feel like I can't make a difference, that what im doing doesn't really matter in the grand scheme of things. Somedays when these lows come for me the only thing I can do is look forward to the next day. I often will say to myself, "dont worry tomorrow when you wake up everything will be ok." I cling to that fact and will myself to have a fabulous next day.